Posted on December 29th, 2008 in Collodion Workshops, Europe, Family, Wet Plate Collodion Instructional Videos, travel | 1 Comment
With help from Summer and Jeanne, I’ve made major progress on my Collodion Workshop videos. I appreciate the email I get (almost daily) regarding the video classes. It motivates me to get them done. It’s a huge undertaking and I’m glad there are people interested in them.
Over the last few months, I’ve kind of reinvented myself. I designed a new(er) logo and launched a new web site. I believe everything is in flux, always changing, and that’s how I tend to live. I’m always in need of something new, it keeps me going. Having said, that, I’ve posted a couple of ideas for my new logos. I really like these. The circle has always got me going - representing infinity, eternity, etc. And the simple black and white “Q” rocks. It’s clean, it’s easy on the eye and is completely me. Actually, the text around the logo is what’s new. I like this because it reminds me of a stamp. It’s tidy and circular. I would love to have a metal (embossing) stamp made of this - like a notary stamp. It would be cool to emboss photographs - paper ones, not glass plates.
Also, this “collodion video venture” forced me into buying another domain. It’s a long technical story about servers. It’s about IIS versus Linux and ASP versus PHP. The membership software needed to live on a Linux box, my studioQ.com domain lives on a Windows box. I ended up buying studioQ.info - I like it, it’s very appropriate for what it will be used for. It was Jeanne’s idea to go with .info - thanks Sweetie! Great idea!
Well, I’m glad the consumption holiday is over. Now all we have to do is to get through the gluttony holiday. Here in Germany, they light fireworks, and I mean HUGE, NOISY ones. I can’t stand it. They have some strange rituals at midnight on New Year’s as well too. The first year we were here, it freaked us out.
I hope everyone has great plans for the new year. 2009 is going to be one of personal work and introspection for me. Of course we’ll do some traveling too. Right now, we’re planning to spend some time in Brussels, Belgium the first week of February and The Netherlands the last week of February. In April, we’ll be back in Vienna, Austria and possibly Budapest, Hungary.
New Year’s resolutions? No, I don’t have any New Year’s resolutions. The only one I might have is to not make any resolutions. However, here’s what I hope for the new year:
1. Live my life to the fullest and to be present as much as possible.
2. Don’t be a participant or a bystander in the evil in the world.
3. Take chances and don’t be afraid to fail.
4. Be grateful for everything.
5. Make a difference in other people’s lives.
6. Put other people before myself (as much as possible).
Those are my hopes for the new year. Why six? Because my number is six.
Posted on December 21st, 2008 in Education, Europe, Wet Plate Collodion Instructional Videos | 4 Comments
They really are. This is why I know I could never make movies. This is much, much bigger than I anticipated. One thing after another is going wrong. I think I get prepared and something I didn’t think of happens. Today, it was the batteries dying in the wireless microphone system.
I shot all of the intros to every chemical yesterday, two hours of tape, and the battery was dead in the receiver in 90% of it! I didn’t know until today when I went to capture the tape. I almost had a breakdown! And today, the battery died in the transmitter halfway through the video on making varnish! I can’t get anything finished! Why is all of this happening? It’s like bad joojoo is living in this project. It upsets me and makes me sad all at the same time.
It’s too bad that I don’t have access to a college or university. I could recruit three or four interns that would love to work on this project with me. It’s a shame that no one here is interested. I could use the help!
Anyway, I’ll do my best to move forward with this project and make it happen. However, I don’t see it being completed at the first of the year (as I had originally intended). With any luck, I’ll open the web site, send off the master DVD and the book for publication sometime in January. And hopefully, I’ll look back on all of this and laugh.
I’m off to go buy some batteries!
Posted on December 21st, 2008 in Art & Theory, Education, Family, politics | Leave A Comment
Who are you, and who am I? Isn’t that what we’re trying to figure out? It’s frustrating when things like money and ego get in the way of our understanding and joy. How is it that we seem so confused about what’s important? Is it fear? Does fear keep us from love, peace, and joy in our lives?
It’s difficult to comprehend most things in life, especially the big things. Things like God, the Holocaust, and aerosol cheese (okay, aerosol cheese isn’t big, but it’s difficult to understand). It’s difficult, because most of us never give enough thought to anything to even start to understand it, let alone make any effort to research it or read other’s thoughts on it. We seem apathetic and lazy. We, mostly Americans, seem obsessed with the superficial and the innocuous, things that won’t mean anything in six months, or a year from now. I don’t believe that we don’t care or that we’re lazy, I think it’s because we’re afraid. We’re scared. We’re afraid to know. We’re afraid of getting old. We’re afraid of getting fat. We’re afraid of going grey. We’re afraid that we’re not smart enough, good looking enough, thin enough, rich enough, strong enough, desirable enough, healthy enough, funny enough, never enough, enough, etc. etc. We’re afraid. And we do crazy things to hide and disguise that fear so we never have to face it.
Think about the pressure we feel to live up to other people’s expectations. Like the pressure to buy a big, beautiful house that we can’t afford or a nice, new car that we don’t really need. Things that we put a lot of “ourselves” into, at the very least, things that we anchor some portion of identity to. Think about what that means – saying that a big house or a new car is “me”, or that they represent “me”, is repulsive when you think about it. However, the need to say, “Look, I’m good enough, see!” is overwhelming and powerful.
How about the power of having money, that’s a big one. It’s sad, you could say you scrubbed toilets for a living but got paid $250,000 a year for it and people would be asking, “How do you qualify for that kind of job?” and, “Where can I apply?”.
We seem overly eager and very willing to sell out and prostitute ourselves for money. We’ll work at a job we hate for 20 or 30 years and be miserable every day, but we never really give our passions or our dreams a chance. Why is that? Do we still believe what our parents told us growing up? “You should be a doctor or lawyer; those professions earn a lot of money!” They said that because they were close enough to the “Great Depression” that they still carry all of that angst and anxiety and aren’t afraid to share it with us. Just because they never followed their dreams, doesn’t mean we shouldn’t follow ours.
I’m tired of being afraid. It’s back in the air now, credit crisis, bad economy, etc. We moved from the fear of terrorists to the fear of having no job. I’m tired of it. I want peace and joy back into my life and I want to follow my passions and dreams.
